On December 17, 2017, it will be 11 months since I’ve big chopped. Almost one year, y’all! It’s been an interesting hair journey. Haha. I️ was supposed to so a 6 month update a while back, but life happens ya know?
So… yeah… it’s been a very interesting 11 months. I’ve learned a lot about me and my hair because of this process. Like eating healthy is a huge part of all of this. Healthy diets bring healthy hair apparently. I’ve been doing not so great in that department. I️ am determined to start eating healthy and working out again. I️ allowed myself to become distracted and I’ve created some not so good eating/physical habits.
Don’t get me wrong. I️ don’t want to become healthy again just for my hair… it’s mainly for myself and because it’s the best lifestyle to live if you ask me. What you eat can really affect your body in good and bad ways.
With all that being said… it has really affected how my hair grows. Though it’s super long and I️ have a huge “fro”, I️ can’t tell that it’s not as healthy as it can be. My hair is super thick and full, but ya know. This is kind of a short update. lol. I’ll have to come back and edit it some. I’ll post a picture of how much my hair has grown also!
So it’s been 5 months since I decided to do the “big chop” and cut almost ALL of my hair off and go natural. Actually, it turned 5 months on the 17th of June. So that means that in a couple of day’s it’ll officially be half a year. Time really does fly! I was so excited when I cut my hair. Of course, I got a couple of looks from people, but who cares? Lol! It was the best thing to do for my hair. I look back at my pictures of my straight and relaxed hair and thought it seemed cute, it was damaged. It was time to let those perms and flat irons go. A lot of people told me that I would go back. I find that funny every time someone says it. Why would I do that, you know? Even though this 4c hair of mine can be a pain in the butt and leave me looking struggly sometimes… I wouldn’t change it for anything. This is my hairs natural state and I don’t want to alter that. I get tempted. Lol. Trust me I do, but nope!
Now, on to this update. I’ve kinda hit a road block… Things got a little rocky and I stopped taking care of my hair like I should. Surprisingly, it still grows. It’s almost 2 inches now. I just feel like it could be healthier. I will say that doing this has really helped with my confidence. It makes me feel raw and like I can accomplish so many things. My life is slightly changing for the better right now. So it’s been hard to keep up with it and this hair of mine but, I’ve finally awakened and realised that I need to get it together. So, it’s back to hair routines, deep conditions, and hot oil treatments. When I can…haha. Things are gonna get busy soon, but I’ll manage. I’m not really sure what I expected my hair to look like. I didn’t want to go off of other peoples hair because we’re all different. There’s a possibility that I might pick my hair out today to see how much it has grown. I’ll have to be extremely careful though. Girl, combing this fro ain’t easy! Lol. I can only imagine how it is for people that have more hair than me. Since it’ll be six months in 3 more days, I’m thinking I’ll just post a picture and quick update then. Stay tuned & thanks for reading.
So, I cut my hair. Ya know? The #BigChop. The last time I was natural I was four. I had long curly ponytails and I cut one of them off. Yup. You read that right. Well, when my mom passed away one of my sisters took it upon herself to ‘take care of my hair’. She relaxed it and continued to do so until I turned about 15. Once I turned 16 I started to put ‘quick weaves’ in my head. I put in sew ins, relaxers, and more. I was damaging my hair for years and didn’t even realise it. I mean my hair was constantly breaking off over the years and I guess I noticed but, I was too wrapped up in other things to focus.
Back to the point! For about 3 years now I’ve wanted to go natural, but I was nervous. I don’t know about anyone else, but I had many fears. Such as not feeling pretty enough, wondering what others would think, and just straight up being attached to my hair. Fast forward to January 2017…after constant ‘protective styles’ I got bored. I woke up one day and got on Youtube and looked up a bunch of ‘Big Chop’ videos. I just decided that I’m going to cut my hair. Haha. I know how silly that may sound to someone, but when I want something I go for it. A certain video that I watched made me want to do it for sure. I can’t remember the Youtubers name, but she had a similar story to mine. She had India Arie’s song ‘I Am Not My Hair’ playing in the background as she cut her hair. Once she finished she looked at herself and tears of joy fell out of her eyes. I couldn’t help but cry with her. It was beautiful to watch. She felt so happy and confident. It was written all over her face. I wanted that.
Later that night I began cutting my hair. It took me until the next day to get all of my relaxed ends off, but once it was over I felt so good. I played Jill Scott’s Golden and the song I Am Not My Hair and sang along with so much happiness. I felt free and I felt confident. It made me extremely happy to know that I wasn’t freaking out at the end. I don’t know if that offends anyone, but I didn’t know what to feel. I feel like I can be me. I feel better than I have felt my entire life. I know how that may sound to say a haircut can do that. It’s just for years I’ve felt insecure about my looks. It was like I couldn’t go out and feel good or be in a genuine good mood unless my hair looked almost perfect in my eyes. So, when I cut my hair I just realized I didn’t need it to feel beautiful. My hair will grow back naturally, healthy, and curly! I’m excited about this journey. It gave me a boost to go ahead with all of the other things I’ve wanted to do. Maybe it’ll give someone else the courage to do it if they want to. Don’t wait for three years to pass by like I did. You can do whatever you want to do, babe.